Feeling good.

I am God-damned AWESOME. Not to be like, egotistical or anything...

But I took my assessment today and I ran a mile in 6:52. I'm really, really pleased. That is INSANE progress over one fucking week. I am God-damned invincible. And I did 17 push ups, which ain't bad, and I'll have no problem knocking out 19 on Tuesday (for my promotion test.) It's the sit ups I'm still worried about, but shit, if I can go from not being able to run a mile to 6:52 and doing like 3 push ups to 17 in 5 days, I can get these sit ups down. I'm doing all kinds of other stuff that's a little easier to work on my abs and hip flexors. I think the flexors are what's killing me because I can do like 100 crunches and not even really be tired or very sore, but getting all the way up is damned near impossible after a while. It's so weird for me to even be talking about exercise. Contrary to the persona I've created for so many years. I think this is all really positive change for me though, and I'll be so much healthier. More water, less coke. Tons of exercise. Actual like... motivation? Who knew I could do that? It's so much easier to work harder when you're getting paid instead of paying to work. Stupid college. I think I'm actually going to do way better in the military than I did in school. It's already suiting me so much better. Everybody keeps worrying that I'm going to change dramatically and not be the friend they know now, but I think maybe I'm not changing who I am so much as shedding a facade. It's been happening over the last like, year or two, slowly. Dropped a lot of bravado, opened my mind quite a bit (though still a pretty stubborn son of a bitch, I admit) got a lot more honest with myself. It feels pretty good. I think this is going to help.