"I'd rather die terrified than live forever."

I stole the above quote from A Softer World, which is awesome. I really, really want the sweatshirt that says it, but it's $18 and there is $0 in my checking account, so it ain't gonna happen today.

I took my ASVAB yesterday and I'm totally happy. I was really afraid I'd bombed from nerves, but I scored in the 95th percentile (for my age range, race, and gender) 'cause that's how they do it. I got a "GT score" of 131 and you need like a 110 to get basically any job in the Army, with few exceptions, like maybe aviation or WOCS (Warrant Officer Candidate School - which takes years to get into anyways.) In any case, I'm set. I scored well above, which means I'm definitely going to get 35M if there are any openings at all, anywhere.

I finally told my mother that I'm enlisting, and she's not being insane about it. So that's good news.

The playlist I'm listening to right now is so, so good. It makes me think of a girl I love and can't have though. Sigh. It's for the best really, but I miss her a lot. I can't even tell her that because my pride defies even my strongest urges... most days. I've started a number of letters that I couldn't finish with her name at the top. I hope promises hold up. Time changes so many things, but I doubt my devoutly romantic nature will ever change.